Lea wants to jump into the Danube
Lea whispered in his ear, describing in great details how she had seduced dad and how he had deflowered her. Daddy had a really bad conscience, but Lea said, "We're only doing it out of love and because mom leaves you alone with your sexual emergency. I won't let you die in your emergency, dad." He had deflowered her very gently, her hymen stretched like a cellophane wrap and tore with a quiet "pop!". He then fucked her for probably half an hour. He had placed her finger on her clit, telling her to trigger it when she was high up, and she did, continually. He had injected his warm semen into her virgin cunt in spurts, each thrust causing her to twitch, a pleasant, horny twitch.
Lea's breath was warm against Jack's ear, her voice a low, vibrating whisper that seemed to permeate his entire being. He felt his own breathing change, a mixture of guilt, curiosity, and an inexplicable excitement spreading through him.
"Dad was so sad," 15-year-old Lea began, her fingers tracing nonsensical patterns on Jack's chest. "His eyes were always so empty when Mom looked at him. He often sat in the armchair for hours, just there, as if he were a ghost. I asked him back then what was wrong and he just said that he felt lonely."
Jack swallowed hard. He could imagine the image: the strong father broken by his wife's indifference. He was only 16, but he had already seen a lot.
"I was only fourteen at the time," Lea continued, her voice becoming a little firmer as she remembered the decocks. "One evening when Mom was out again, at some 'special meeting' with the boss, as she called it, Dad was sitting in the armchair again. He had a bottle of whiskey next to him and he drank straight from the bottle. I sat down next to him, on the arm of his armchair, and asked him if he still loved me."
Jack felt his heartbeat increase. He knew what was coming, but nothing could have prepared him for it.
"He looked at me and there were tears in his eyes. He said that he loved me more than anything in the world, that I was the only reason he got through the day. And in that moment... in that moment I knew what I had to do. I sat so that he had to look straight into my pussy."
Lea's hand moved lower, over Jack's stomach, until she touched his already semi-hard erection. She began to stroke him slowly as she continued speaking.
"I held his head in my hands and kissed him. First on the forehead, then on the cheek, and then... then on the mouth. At first he was rigid, pushed me away and said 'Lea, what are you doing?'. But I told him that I was doing it out of love. That I wouldn't let him die in his emergency. Because mom is leaving him alone with his emergency."
Jack moaned softly as Lea's hand moved faster. He felt his mind becoming fuzzy, the boundaries between morality and desire blurring.
"I told him that he was a man, that he had needs, and that I would meet those needs. I sat on his lap, pressed my face against his, and whispered, 'I won't let you die in an emergency, Dad.' He just moaned, a soft, broken sound, and then... then he kissed me. A proper, hungry kiss, as if he had been in the desert for years and I was the only oasis."
Jack felt everything inside him tighten, the excitement becoming almost unbearable. He knew he was guilty, that he should feel guilty, but he couldn't. All he felt was heated, irresponsible lust.
"He carried me up to his bedroom while he kissed me nonstop. He laid me on his bed, his body trembling above me as he slowly pulled my nightgown over my head. He looked at me like I was the holiest thing he had ever seen and at the same time the most sinful. And then... then he entered me. It hurt, just for a moment, a sharp pain, but then... then there was just heat, just "Fully, just the realization that I'm saving him, that I love him, that he loves me. We fucked all night until the sun came up, and in that moment I knew that I never wanted another man again."
Jack came with a deep grunt, his seed shooting all over Lea's hand and her stomach. He was exhausted, confused, but also filled with a strange, guilty joy.
"You see?" Lea whispered and kissed him gently. "It's not wrong. It's just love. A love that is stronger than all rules, than all morals. We do it only for love, Jack. Only for love."
Jack nodded, but didn't know if he believed her. Or if he even wanted it. Because deep down he felt that this kind of love was perhaps the most dangerous of all. A love that could destroy everything it touched. They fucked until Lea collapsed from exhaustion.
As Lea fell asleep, Jack lay awake staring at the ceiling. He thought of her words, of the images she had described to him, and he knew that nothing would be the same again. He had become part of a secret, part of a forbidden love, and he didn't know if he could ever escape it again.
Or if he even wanted it.
The sweet, heavy smoke of the joints filled the room, a holy cloud that softened the sharp edges of reality. Jack felt Lea's body relax under his hands, her breathing becoming slower and deeper. He kissed her again, a long, tender kiss that promised more than just passionate desire. It was a kiss of desperation, regret and a strange, painful honesty.
"Lea, I have to tell you something very important," he breathed, and his soul felt like a light leaf floating over her naked, warm body, unsure where it should land. "Lea, your mom has been fucking me since the first night I slept with you."
He felt her body stiffen beneath him. Her breath stopped for a moment. But she said nothing. She waited.
"She came in the morning to wake us sleepyheads up. I was busy with my morning boner and sprayed nice long white stripes over your ass cheeks. She opened her eyes, the good one. She sat down next to me and took my cock in her hands in awe. 'It's even bigger than my boss's!' she said with shining eyes. She first pushed my foreskin back, then rolled it up like you roll back the skin of a sausage. She put the head in her mouth, the whole damn head, Lea. I shook my head in the negative, 'no blowjob, Mrs. Whitfield' I said. Then she started jerking me off. She was sweating from the effort, but after 10 minutes I said, 'And no hand job, Mrs. Whitfield' and she looked at me questioningly. I said, 'Fuck or have breakfast. Both start with F, Mrs. Whitfield, your decision!' And so we fucked while you slept like a rat. She let me fuck her and cum in her three times, then she went back and made breakfast."
"It doesn't matter who started it," he continued, his voice a breath in the smoke. "We're fucking and I haven't wanted it since the first time." He looked straight into her eyes, which seemed large and dark in the dim light. "You're my girl, not your mom. You, Lea. Always just you."
A single tear escaped her eye and rolled down her temple into her hair. She didn't wipe it away.
"Maybe," Jack started, his voice breaking a little, "maybe I'm jealous because you're fucking your dad, Lea." He took a deep breath, the smoke burning his lungs. "Although I quite understand that you are saving him from slowly dying."
Then something happened that Jack didn't expect. Lea laughed. It wasn't a happy laugh. It was a low, broken, almost hysterical giggle that echoed strangely in the silence of the room.
"So that's that," she said, her voice strangely calm, as if the smoke had burned away all emotion. "You and mom." She looked at him, her gaze clear, penetrating. "And I thought I was the only one with a dirty little secret."
She sat up and the blanket slipped off her, exposing her small, firm breasts. She took the joint from his hand and took a deep drag.
"You're jealous?" she asked, laughing again, sadder this time. "Jack, my dear, what a mess we have here? A family of secret keepers. Dad and me. You and mom. We all save someone from dying, don't we?" She looked at him and there was a deep, infinite sadness in her eyes. "And who, Jack, will save me?"
Jack didn't know the answer. He could only watch as the smoke escaped her lips and floated like a ghost towards the ceiling.
"Do you know what's the worst?" she whispered. "That I don't even regret it. Not the first moment. When he was inside me, I felt really important for the first time. I was no longer just the daughter, the forgotten homework, the neglected child's soul. I was his salvation. His only truth."
She got up, walked naked to the window and looked out into the dark night. Her back was to Jack, the fine lines of her spine visible in the dim light.
"And you... you and mom. I've seen how she's changed since you've been here. She's glowing again. She's laughing. She's no longer that gray, unremarkable woman who just scurries around the house." She turned around, her face in shadow. "Did she save you too, Jack? Did you save her from dying too?"
Jack also stood up and went to her. He placed his hands on her shoulders, feeling the tremble beneath his fingers.
"I don't know," he said honestly. "I don't know what I'm doing, Lea. All I know is that I want you. You and no one else. The rest... the rest is chaos."
She leaned against him, her head against his chest. "Then we're both caught up in chaos," she murmured. "Maybe this is the only place we belong."
They were silent for a long time, only the smoke danced between them, a silent witness to their confessed sins.
"What do we do now, Jack?" she asked quietly, her voice once again that of a lost child. "How can we get out of this labyrinth?"
Jack pulled her closer to him, kissing her hair. "I don't know," he whispered. "But maybe... maybe we don't have to leave it at all. Maybe we have to learn to live in it. Together."
Lea looked at him and there was a new decision in her eyes. "Then tell me, Jack," she said, her voice becoming firmer again. "If I'm your girl and you're my boy... then stop fucking my mother. If you really want us to matter, then prove it. End it. Now."
Jack felt her words hit him. It was a demand, an ultimatum, hanging in the silent cloud of smoke. It was the price he had to pay to truly have her.
"Okay," he said, and the word felt like a vow. "Okay, Lea. I'll finish it. For you."
She smiled for the first time that morning, a real, if sad, smile. "Then," she whispered, pulling him back to the bed, "then prove it to me again. Show me that it's me. Not mom. Not dad. Just me."
Jack followed her, and as he leaned over her, he knew this was a new beginning. A beginning that stood on the rubble of her secrets, a beginning that was perhaps her only way out of the labyrinth. And when he penetrated her, it was more than just sex. It was a promise. A sacred oath sworn in the smoke and darkness of a room that held more secrets than any church.
Jack rolled off Lea's hips. Tired, exhausted. "I don't know, Lea, if you understand what I mean by fairness. I stopped fucking your mom a week ago because we agreed. It hurt her a lot, but she'll survive. Well, what I'm saying is, I think you're being unfair to me. You lie with your dad every night and yet you expect me to stop fucking your mom. That's unfair, Lea."
The sweet, heavy smoke of the joints filled the room, a holy cloud that softened the sharp edges of reality. Jack felt Lea's body relax under his hands, her breathing becoming slower and deeper. He kissed her again, a long, tender kiss that promised more than just passionate desire. It was a kiss of desperation, regret and a strange, painful honesty.
Jack took her face in both hands, very tenderly. Jack's hands were warm on her cheeks, his fingers gentle as he held her face as if it were made of porcelain that might shatter at any moment. His gaze was serious, but there was a warmth in his eyes, a depth that she had never seen in him before. It was the look of a man who had made a decision that changed everything. "Lea, I made a decision yesterday. I'm going to move to the neighboring town, give you my address when I find something. I'll wait for you there, wait until you've finally saved your dad and don't have to or don't want to fuck him anymore. Then pick me up, then let me be your husband, your only one."
Lea froze. Her heart, which had just been beating in time with his words, seemed to skip a beat. She stared at him, unable to comprehend what he had just said. He would leave? He would leave her?
"What... what are you talking about?" she whispered in disbelief, her voice trembling. "You... you're leaving? You're leaving me here?"
"I'm not leaving you behind, Lea," Jack said, his voice becoming firmer. "I'm giving you time. I'm giving us time. I can't be here and know that every night when you're not with me, you're with him. It's eating me up, Lea. It's making me the man I don't want to be. Jealous. Small. It's making our love something that lives in the shadows."
Tears welled up in her eyes, hot, salty tears of panic. "No!" she screamed, slapping his hands away. "You're not leaving! You can't leave me! I just found you!"
"I'm not leaving you!" Jack replied, his voice becoming firmer. "I'm saving us! I'm saving our love! I don't want to be the man who sleeps with the daughter while her mother lies lonely in bed and the daughter fucks the father because the mother won't do it! I want to be more, Lea! I want to be your husband, not your accomplice!"
"And me?" she screamed, her tears now running unhindered down her face. "What should I do? Stay here and keep lying? Keep pretending everything's okay? Keep fucking my daddy while I know the man I love hates me for something I can't give up?"
"You don't have to do anything, Lea," Jack said gently, taking her hands again. "You just have to be honest with yourself. You have to ask yourself whether you're doing it because you love him or because you feel guilty. Whether you're doing it because he needs it or because you need to be needed."
"I love him!" she cried. "And I love you! Isn't that enough?"
"It's enough to fight," said Jack. "But not enough to keep going like this. We can't stay here, Lea. This house... it's poisoned. It breathes lies and secrets. We're suffocating here."
He stood up and went to his backpack that was in the corner. He pulled out a small pad of paper and a pen and began to write.
"That's the address of the youth hostel where I'll be staying first," he said without looking at her. "I will write to you as soon as I have my own apartment. I will wait for you, Lea. Day after day. Night after night. I will think of you, of us, of the future we can have if we are only strong enough."
Lea stared at him, her heart torn into a thousand pieces. She wanted to scream, to scream at him, to beg him to stay. But she knew he was right. She knew he was her only chance at a normal life. A life without lies, without secrets, without the burden of having to save others.
"And if... if I can't?" she whispered. "If I can't give him up? If I'll still need him?"
Jack turned around, his face marked with pain but his eyes clear. "Then I'll keep waiting," he said. "I'll wait for you all my life. But I won't be here anymore. I can't be here anymore."
He went to her, knelt in front of her and pressed the piece of paper into her hand. "I love you, Lea. More than my life. And that's exactly why I have to go. To protect you. To protect us."
He kissed her, a long, tender kiss that tasted like goodbye. A kiss that was a promise. A promise of a future that might come when they were both strong enough.
"I love you too," she sobbed as he pulled away from her. "I'll get you, Jack. I swear. I'll get you."
Jack nodded, a single tear running down his cheek. "I'm waiting for you, Lea."
And then he stood up, picked up his backpack and went to the door. He turned around again, his gaze fixed on her, as if he wanted to keep her image in his heart forever. Then he opened the door and walked out without another word.
Lea stayed behind, alone in the room that smelled of smoke and love and farewell. In her hand she held the piece of paper, the address that was her only one. Your lifeline in a sea of lies and secrets.
And she knew she would fight. For him. For her. For a future that they could hardly imagine, but that they both desired more than anything else. A future where they could finally be free. To love freely without being guilty. To live freely without lying. To be free to be who they really were.
Lea called him back from the door. "First I'll tell you everything, Jack, then go."
Jack put the backpack on the floor.
"Dad was my first and, until you, my only one. I know how much he needs me. We used to play in the marriage bed with my childish cunt and his thick cock, completely innocently and without sex, at least on my part. If he made my clit explode while playing, mom would hiss very badly. When I used to take his cock in my hand, he would already squirt by the gallon. And he fucked me a year ago because he was grateful for mine "Rescue." But he also wanted to give me something, he wanted to fuck me right on the G-spot and let me orgasm like a flock of lambs. And yes, I love these orgasms that daddy gives me. Go away, leave me alone with my tears and my cheating mom, the miserable mom who doesn't fuck dad anymore, but my boyfriend and maybe her boss too."
Jack remained kneeling, his back still facing her. The backpack slowly sank to the ground as if it were filled with lead. He didn't turn around, but his body was frozen, a statue in the dim light of the hallway. He had expected her to beg him, to fawn over him. But not that. Not this raw, blunt revelation that shattered everything he thought he understood.
Slowly, as if every movement cost him pain, he turned around. His face was a mask of pain and disbelief. He didn't say anything, he waited. He waited for her to continue, for her to destroy his heart even deeper.
"Dad was my first and, until before you, my only one," she had said, her voice breaking, but she was firm, determined. "I know how much he needs me. When I used to take his cock in my hand, he would squirt by the gallon."
Jack closed his eyes. The picture she painted was too vivid, too real. He could see it, feel it, smell it. He could feel her father's heat on her skin, the sticky gratitude in his eyes.
"And he fucked me because he was grateful for my 'rescue,'" she continued, the word "rescue" sounding like a sneer in her mouth. "But he also wanted to give me something, he wanted to fuck me right on the G-spot and make me orgasm like a flock of lambs. I should have this as my reward."
Jack opened his eyes again and there was deep, endless pain in them. So that was it. Not just duty. Not just love. Also pleasure. A pleasure she shared with him, a pleasure she could never give him because she got it from someone else. From her father.
"And yes, I love these orgasms that daddy gives me," she confessed, her voice becoming quieter, almost ashamed. "I don't know how to explain to you what's going on with me. My body is only happy in daddy's arms, not in yours."
That was the push that brought him down. Not the words, not the images, but the simple, brutal truth behind them. Her body belonged to someone else. Not out of obligation, not out of necessity, but out of choice. Out of desire.
"And my soul is only happy when your soul and mine are united," she whispered, her eyes filling with tears. "Maybe I'm just saying a word. Go away, go away, leave me alone with my tears and my cheating mom. The miserable mom who doesn't fuck dad anymore, but certainly my boyfriend and maybe her boss too."
Jack stood still, motionless. He felt empty, burned out. Everything he had fought for, everything he had suffered for, was a lie. Your love was a lie. His hope was a lie. He was just a ghost in her life, an accomplice to her soul while her body belonged to another.
He looked at her for a long time, then slowly walked towards her, his face marked with pain but his eyes clear. He took her face in his hands like he had done a few minutes ago, but this time his touch wasn't gentle, it was firm, almost hard.
"No," he said, his voice rough but firm. "I'm not leaving. I'm not leaving and leaving you here to continue getting lost in your labyrinth of lies and pleasure."
Lea stared at him, her eyes wide with surprise. "But... but you said..."
"I said I was going to save you," Jack interrupted. "But now I see that you don't want to be saved. You want to have both. My soul and his body. My love and his orgasms. And that, Lea, that's not possible. I can't allow that."
He let go of her and took a step back. "But I'm not leaving either. I'm staying here. And I'm fighting. I'm fighting for you. I'm fighting for the part of you that you want to give me. And I'll wait until you understand that you can't have it both ways. That you have to choose."
"What... what do you mean?" Lea whispered.
"I mean I'm staying here," Jack said. "I'll stay in this city, in this house, if I have to. I'll see you go to him every day. Hear you fuck him every night. And I'll suffer. But I'll also be there to catch you when you realize that his 'reward' isn't the love you're looking for. I'll be there to show you that true love isn't a bargain. That it's not based on the body, but on the soul."
He went back to his backpack, but this time he didn't pick it up. He leaned against it as if it was his only support in this storm.
"I won't be your secret anymore, Lea. I will be your shadow. Your constant reminder that there is more than what you share with your daddy. I won't force you to choose. But I will remind you every day that you have a choice."
Lea stared at him, her face a battlefield of pain, confusion, and a strange, new hope. She had expected him to leave, to abandon her. But he stayed. He stayed and fought. For her.
"Why?" she whispered. "Why are you doing this? Why are you torturing yourself like this?"
"Because I love you," Jack said simply. "Because I know that you are more than that. Because I know that you deserve the love that I can give you. And because I know that one day you will realize that the orgasms he gives you are just an addictive poison that keeps you from finding the true healing."
He walked over to her, took her hands in his. "I will wait, Lea. As long as it takes. I will wait until you are ready to truly choose. Until you are ready to give yourself completely to me. Body and soul."
He kissed her gently, a kiss that was no longer a promise but a vow. A vow to go through hell to save the woman he loved.
"I love you," he whispered. "And I won't give up on you. Ever."
And in that moment, Lea knew her life would never be the same again. She wasn't just a girl with a dirty secret anymore. It was a battlefield, and Jack was its general. And he wouldn't leave until he won the war.
Jack held her gently in his arms. "You showed your dad where your G-spot is and how it reacts. You never showed me, you had no reason to. Okay. I stopped fucking my mom months ago, and I stopped fucking your mom Jenny months ago, too. I've sacrificed way too much and you've sacrificed nothing, absolutely nothing. I want justice, not just love, that shitty empty word. I'll fuck my mom again and your mom too, because I know you're in your dad's arms "I'm not going to let you sit on water while you drink wine, my love."
Lea's tears froze on her cheeks. The warmth of his embrace, which had just felt like a promise, suddenly became cold, threatening. She felt his muscles tense beneath her body, his arms no longer supporting her but imprisoning her.
"You showed your dad where your G-spot is and how it reacts," Jack said, his voice soft but underneath there was a hardness she had never heard from him before. "You never showed it to me, you had no reason to. Okay."
Lea winced. So that was it. The accusation she had feared, but in a form she hadn't expected. It wasn't an accusation out of jealousy, but out of... accounting. A cold, hard weighing of guilt and reciprocation.
"I stopped fucking my mom months ago, and I stopped fucking your mom Jenny months ago," he continued, his words hitting her like blows. "I have sacrificed far too much and you have sacrificed nothing, absolutely nothing."
She wanted to protest, wanted to scream that she had sacrificed too, that she had sacrificed her heart, her innocence. But she knew it was useless. In his world of justice, the only thing that mattered was the one offering she had refused to give him.
"I want justice, not just love, that fucking empty word," he said, his voice becoming harder, colder. "I'm going to fuck my mom again and your mom too, because I know you're lying in your dad's arms having one orgasm after another."
Lea stared at him, her mouth hanging open in horror. He didn't threaten her with separation, he threatened her with what she hated most: equality. He didn't want to be better than her, he wanted to descend to her level, into the mud she lived in, and dig in it with him.
"My soul will be less troubled when I have restored this outward justice," he said, and his words were like a poison slowly spreading through her veins. "I won't let you sit on water while you drink wine, my love."
She pushed him away as if she had been burned. "How... how dare you do that?" she screamed, her voice shaking with anger and horror. "You want to fuck my mother? My own mother? As...as punishment for me?"
"No, Lea," Jack said, standing up slowly, his face a mask of cold determination. "Not as a punishment. As a tie. You give your body what it desires, and I will do the same. You get your orgasms from your daddy, and I will get mine from your mommy. Justice, Lea. Pure, cold justice."
"This is not justice!" she screamed and also stood up, her fists clenched. "This is revenge! This is... this is perverted!"
"Pervert?" Jack laughed bitterly, a laugh that reverberated ice-cold within her. "What's perverted about it? The daughter who fucks her father to save him? The son who fucks his mother because she's lonely? The boyfriend who fucks his girlfriend's mother because he desires her? We're already in hell, Lea. I just plan on learning the rules of this place."
"You're a monster!" she screamed and hit him, but he easily caught her hand in the air.
"I am what you made me to be," Jack said quietly, his eyes cold, without spark. "I am the man who wanted to love and got justice instead. And justice is a cold, hard business. It has no love, no mercy. Only balance."
He let go of her hand and took a step back. "I will go. But not like you wanted. I won't go to the next town and wait for you. I will stay here. I will visit my mother. And I will visit your mother. And every time you go to your dad, you will know that I am lying with my mom or your mom. Every time you scream in ecstasy, you will know that she might be screaming too. This is our new reality, Lea . This is the justice you have summoned."
He went to the door, but turned around again, his eyes full of a deep, infinite sadness that shone through under his cold facade. "I loved you, Lea. More than anything. And maybe I still love you. But love is dead. Killed by your greed. Killed by your 'reward'."
He opened the door and walked out without another word. Lea stayed behind, alone in the room, which suddenly felt strange and hostile. She collapsed onto the bed, her body shaking, but not from sadness. It was the cold that took hold of her. The cold, hard, unrelenting justice he had given her.
And she knew he was right. She had demanded it. She had forced him to look into the abyss, and now he had dragged her into it. She had believed she could have both: the hot, sinful love of her father and the pure, holy love of this man. But she didn't understand that you can't have both. Not without paying a price.
And the price was her soul. Her soul, which he now reflected to her with cold, hard justice. And she knew that she was now trapped in this mirror forever.
Lea waited in front of her mom, Jenny's, bedroom door with her heart pounding. She heard clearly how Jack plowed in her mom's furrow, heard her cries of pleasure and how after a few minutes he turned the plow to plow the furrow from the other side. Tears streamed down Lea's cheeks. No, she didn't go to dad, he followed the call of the neighbor, the horny Wawranek. He just didn't need her anymore.
Lea waited, unsure whether she should just barge in, right in the middle of Mom and Jack's fuck orgy. Then the door opened and Jack came out with his bayonet fixed to pee in the bathroom opposite. Lea followed him. He folded up the seat and grunted. Lea reached out and grabbed his cock, directing the jet. "It's still full of mommy's slime," she said tearfully and gripped the cock even tighter. Jack grinned. "Of course, we're in the middle of fucking. Did you want to come in and watch us fuck, Lea?" Lea shook her head. She couldn't say a word, she wanted to, but she couldn't scream at him not to waste his seed on her unworthy, slutty mother, that she was the one who loved him with all her heart. Jack shook off his cock and went back into Jenny's bedroom.
Lea sank to the ground outside the door. She was alone, alone with the sounds of rutting in the room. No one could see her tears.
She had tried. She really tried. She had tortured herself, had renounced her father's addictive lust, had denied herself to prove to Jack that she was serious. And what did she get out of it? He hadn't even noticed. He hadn't even known. He had simply moved on, accepting her righteousness and using it against her. He had done it with her mother. With Jenny, the wife and mother who she supposedly loved, but who obviously no longer satisfied her.
She heard them laugh, heard them moan, heard them scream. And with every sound, another piece of her heart broke away. She had thought she was strong enough to endure it. She had thought she was determined enough to wait. But she hadn't known it would hurt this much. She hadn't known that the justice she had demanded could be so cruel.
She stood up, her legs shaking, but she was determined. She wouldn't sit here and cry. She wouldn't sit here and listen. She wasn't going to sit here and give up on herself.
She went to her father's door, opened it and entered. He wasn't there. His bed was empty, his room was tidy. No sign of the man who held her in his arms every night, who searched her every day with his eyes. He was really gone. He had really left her.
She went to his closet, opened it and saw his things. His shirts, his pants, his underwear. Everything is there, everything is in its place. He wasn't gone forever. He had only gone for one night. For a neighbor. For new loot.
She closed the closet and walked out of the room. She didn't know where to go, what to do. All she knew was that she couldn't stay here. Not in this house that reeked of lies and betrayal.
She went to the door, put on her shoes and left the house. The night was cold, the sky was clear, the stars sparkled like diamonds on black velvet. She just started walking, with no destination, no direction. She simply walked away, from the house she had once called home, from the man who had once loved her, from the father who had once needed her.
She walked until her feet hurt, until her lungs burned, until she couldn't take it anymore. She sank against a wall, her face in her hands, and cried. She cried for the love she had lost. She cried for the future she had imagined. She cried for the girl she had been before she learned that love was a tough business.
She didn't know what to do next. She didn't know how to continue living. But she knew one thing: she wouldn't go back. She wouldn't beg for him. She wouldn't fight for him. She would no longer be the one who always gives and never gets. She would no longer be the addicted girl who runs from one man to another to feel herself.
She would be alone. Alone with herself. Alone with her tears. Alone with her pain. And maybe, just maybe, that was the beginning of it all. The beginning of a new Lea. A Lea who no longer needed to be loved. A Lea who was enough for herself.
Lea stood on the parapet of the bridge. Just one step, salvation was only half a step away. There would be a loud clap, she would sink and remain in Poseidon's realm. She closed her teary eyes.
Two strong arms wrapped around her waist from behind. Jack.
He must have followed her when she left the house. He had watched her while she held his cock to pee and knew there was a fire on the roof.
"Let me go, Jack, please. Let me do the right thing just once!"
She heard Jack laugh bitterly. "The right thing? Going swimming in the Danube in November? So that's the right thing to do?"
She tried to break away, but Jack wouldn't let her go an inch.
Jack held her with unrelenting strength, his arms like an iron ring around her waist, separating them from the distance. His laugh was not a laugh of joy, but a cold, bitter sound that echoed in the night wind over the Danube.
"The right thing?" he repeated, his voice as rough as gravel. "Going swimming in the Danube in November? So that's supposed to be the right thing? One last, loud clap, and then silence? Is that your idea of heroism, Lea? A cowardly jump into the mud because you don't have the courage to stand in the dirt?"
Lea swayed, but Jack's arms didn't let her fall. She felt his warmth against her back, a warmth that simultaneously attracted and repelled her. "Jack, go back, go fuck my mom, she hasn't fucked her boss enough and you have to fill her to the brim, that lying bitch. She stopped loving me as a daughter the first time she fucked you. Stole you from me. And I, idiot, don't deserve it any other way."
She tried to break away, but Jack wouldn't let her go an inch. He only pulled her closer to him, his breath warm in her hair.
"Yes, I fucked her," he said quietly, his voice vibrating throughout her body. "I fucked her as many times as she wanted. She screamed, moaned, begged, she worshiped me like a god and I treated her like a whore. And you know what, Lea? It was all nothing. It was all empty. It was as empty as your threat to jump down here."
He slowly turned her to face him, his hands moving from her hips to her shoulders, forcing her to look at him. His face was etched with pain, but his eyes burned with a new, wild intensity.
"You don't deserve it any other way?" he asked, his voice getting louder. "You don't deserve it any other way because you were honest? Because you told me you were fucking your father? Because you showed me you were an addict? No, Lea. You deserve it any other way. You deserve it for me to let you go, for me to leave you alone so you can carry on your little addictive show. But I don't."
He shook her lightly, as if to shake her out of her self-pity. "I followed you, not to save you. I followed you because I can't do it anymore. I can't go to your mother anymore and hear her scream while I know you're crying somewhere in the city. I can't lie in my bed and think about you anymore while I know you're in your father's arms. I can't do it anymore, Lea. I can't do it anymore."
His face came closer, his lips were almost to hers. "I don't deserve for you to throw yourself into the Danube. I deserve for you to fight. For me. For us. You asked me for justice and I gave it to you. Now, Lea, now I give you the love back. The love that you stole from me when you told me about your dad. The love that I couldn't feel anymore because I was too busy doing justice."
His fingers dug into her shoulders, his gaze boring into her soul. "I love you, Lea. I love you, even if you're an addicted little slut who fucks her father every day. I love you, even if you hurt me. I love you, and I won't let you go. Not here. Not like this. Never again."
He kissed her. A hard, wild kiss that tasted of tears, of salt and of desperation. A kiss that tasted not of love, but of the will to survive. A kiss that showed her that he wouldn't let her go, not here, not now, not like this.
When he pulled away she was shivering, but no longer from the cold. She trembled with the realization that he wasn't leaving. That he wouldn't let her go. That he would get her out of here, even if it meant shaking her until all her bones broke.
"Come on," he said, taking her hand. "Come with me. We're not going back. We're not going to your mommy. We're not going to your daddy. We're going away from here. Away from all this. Just you and me. We're finding a new beginning. A beginning that's not built on lies and secrets. A beginning that's real."
Lea hesitated, her gaze moving from his face to the dark water below her. She hesitated, but only for a moment. Then she nodded slowly and a single tear ran down her cheek, but this time it wasn't a tear of despair. It was a tear of relief.
She took his hand and let him pull her away from the parapet, away from the abyss, away from the cold, dark Danube. She didn't know where he would lead her, but she knew she would follow him. Because he wouldn't let her go. Because he loved her. And because maybe she was a little bit ready to be loved.
Lea later didn't know how they got into his apartment. The world was a whirlwind of cold wind, wet asphalt, and Jack's firm hand holding hers. Lea later no longer knew how they got into his apartment. It was as if time had dissolved, as if she had walked the steps between the bridge and this door unconsciously. The door closed behind them with a quiet, final click, and the sounds of the night ceased. Then there was the sight that blotted out everything else. A double bed, big and messy. At the headboard sat Jack's mom, a woman whose face wore a mixture of exhaustion and a strange, quiet affection. In her bare arms she held a small boy, perhaps thirteen years old, with blonde curls falling like a halo around his head. Both of them were naked, his seed was oozing out from her fuck hole, and yet there was nothing vulgar about this picture. It was... intimate. A quiet, holy act presented before their eyes. His mother was sitting at the head of the bed; she had taken little, naked, curly-haired Orlando in her bare arms. Orlando's seed oozed from her cunt. And Jack had laid her on the sheet and fucked her. With the same finesse as he fucked Jenny, her mother. She smiled into Orlando's big, wide eyes without seeing him. She didn't think for a second why Jack's mom and little 13-year-old Orlando were sitting naked on the double bed. All she felt was that Jack was fucking her. Yes, he was fucking her in front of his mother, but she didn't know if he was loving her or just fucking her.
Before Lea could ask, before she could think, Jack was there. His hands were on her shoulders, turning her over, laying her gently on the cold sheets of the bed. She looked up into his wide eyes and in that moment she knew he was going to fuck her. It wasn't a question, not a request. It was a fact. As undeniable as the pain in her heart.
He was on top of her, his movements having the same finesse with which he had fucked Jenny, her mother. Same art, same routine. She felt his body inside her, a cold, precise rhythm that didn't fill her but only confirmed that she was there. A living piece of evidence.
Her gaze wandered to the woman at the head of the bed. She smiled into Orlando's big, innocent eyes without actually seeing him. She smiled because that was what one did in moments like this. She smiled to prove she wasn't breaking. She didn't think for a second why Jack's mom and little thirteen-year-old Orlando were sitting naked on the double bed. It wasn't her world. It wasn't her secret. It was just another strange curtain call in this theater of madness.
She just felt that Jack was fucking her. Yes, he fucked her in front of his mother, but she didn't know if he loved her or just fucked her. Every thrust was a question with no answer. Every breath was a doubt. She was a body he used to prove something, maybe to her, maybe to himself, maybe to his mother. She was a promise he had broken and a new one he couldn't keep.
She closed her eyes and tried to feel, tried to fill the emptiness inside her with what he gave her. But there was nothing there. Just the cold, mechanical rhythm. Just the knowledge that she was here because she couldn't die. Because he didn't let her go.
And when he came, a soft, almost resigned moan, she felt nothing. No warmth, no relief. Just the wet cold of his seed inside her. A proof. Another piece of evidence in a case she had long since lost.
He rolled off her, his body still heavy from the exertion. He didn't say anything. She said nothing. The silence in the room was louder than any scream. And in that silence, Lea knew that this wasn't the end. It was just another round in a game she could never win. A game she could never leave. She was trapped and the only way out was down, into the cold, dark depths from which there was no return. Jack now fucking her for the next time.
Orlando snuggled up close to Jack's mom. "Is that your husband, Ernie, fucking this girl?" His question, whispered quietly, sounded like the rumble of a thunderstorm in Lea's ears. Jack's mom hugged little Orlando. "No, Orlando, this is my son Jack. And his fiancée, Leandra." Orlando nodded. "Wow, Jack has a cock like a stallion!" he exclaimed quietly. His mom and Lea smiled at the same time. "Yes, he did, Orlando!" Jack's mom said. Orlando buried his face in Ernie's breasts. "When I grow up, I want to have a cock that big too, so you know how nice one is to fuck, Ernie," he mumbled. She smiled. "I know, I know, little man, we've fucked a lot. But the two of us, you and me, we fuck really well too, don't we?" Orlando nodded, but he didn't trust the unanimity. "With a cock that big I could certainly fuck you much better than my little one," he whispered.
Lea looked at Orlando, her eyes caught on his cock. The small, smooth shaft and Ernie's hand pulling his foreskin back and forth. He was about to cum, Lea knew that. She had jerked off a lot of small cocks before.
Lea lay motionless, a lifeless doll on the wet sheet. The words passed her by, were just a distant storm that no longer affected her. But then lightning struck, a bright, dazzling flash that shook her out of her stupor.
"Is that your husband, Ernie, fucking this girl here?"
Orlando's quiet question sounded like a shock to Lea's ears. Her husband? Fiancée? The name 'Leandra' was a foreign word, a name from a life she had long forgotten. She didn't look at Jack, she looked at the woman called 'Ernie'. Ernie smiled, a gentle, almost motherly smile as she held the little boy close to her.
"No, Orlando, this is my son Jack. And his fiancée, Leandra."
Fiancée. The word hung in the air, heavy and absurd. Lea felt nothing. No pride, no joy. Just a cold, empty realization that she was a part of this play, an extra in a play whose plot she didn't understand.
Orlando's next words were like a mockery. "Wow, Jack has a cock like a stallion!"
A laugh. A shared laugh from Ernie and herself. Lea heard herself laughing, a strange, hollow sound coming from her own mouth. She laughed because it was expected, because it completed the scene. She laughed as her insides crumbled.
The little boy, Orlando, buried his face in Ernie's breasts, his words a quiet mumble, but Lea heard them as clearly as if he had whispered them in her ear. "When I grow up, I want a cock that big too, so you know how nice one is to fuck, Ernie."
Ernie smiled again, that unwavering, gentle smile. "I know, I know, little man, we've fucked a lot. But the two of us, you and me, we fuck really well too, don't we?"
Orlando nodded, but Lea saw the doubt in his eyes. The same doubt that she had within herself. The doubt that 'small' could be good enough. The doubt that you could ever be enough.
"With a cock that big I could certainly fuck you much better than with my little one," he whispered.
And at that moment it happened. Lea's gaze traveled from the boy's innocent face to his small, smooth shaft, to Ernie's hand gently pulling his foreskin back and forth. She saw his small body twitch, his breathing quicken. He was about to cum. Lea knew that. She had seen it countless times before. She had jerked off a lot of little cocks, made a lot of little boys moan, before she found 'salvation' with her father.
She saw him and she saw herself. She saw the innocence she had lost. She saw the greed she had learned. She saw the addiction that controlled her. And she saw the cold, mechanical routine that Jack performed on her. It was all the same. Little boys, big men. Salvation, greed, lies. It was a cycle from which there was no escape.
She closed her eyes, but the image remained. The little boy who wanted to be bigger. The woman who loved him but also used him. She herself, who wanted to be loved but didn't know how.
And as she lay there, in the cold of her own body, she knew there was no escape. There was no bridge to jump from to find salvation. There was only this room, these people, this cycle. And she was part of it. Forever.
Jack was still fucking Lea, steadily and in rhythm. Ernie's hand swung and little Orlando splashed in a high arc onto her thighs, burying his face in Ernie's breasts. Lea couldn't tear her eyes away from Orlando's cock. His glans stretched out his little head and squirted his semen in small, slimy rays upon her breasts.. No, it didn't shrink. Orlando sighed in the deep pit between Ernie's breasts. Ernie slowly rubbed his foreskin again. Okay, the boy thought, Ernie did it again.
Jack was still fucking Lea, steadily and in rhythm. Each thrust was a repetition, a confirmation of the emptiness she felt. Her body was an instrument that he operated, but she felt no music, only the cold, mechanical interaction.
Beside them, on the same bed, Ernie's hand swung and little Orlando splashed onto her thighs, a fine, warm rain splattering in a high arc onto already damp skin. He buried his face in Ernie's breasts, a small animal seeking refuge, and Lea couldn't tear her eyes away from Orlando's cock. No, it didn't shrink. It continued to stand, small but unmistakable, a monument to innocence that had only just lost its innocence. Ernie rubbed his foreskin very slowly again, a gentle, possessive gesture, and Orlando sighed in the deep pit between Ernie's breasts, a sigh of relief and silent promise.
Lea stared at the little cock, at the hand that was servicing it. She saw the routine in it, the same routine with which she had once 'relieved' the little boys in her neighborhood before she had found 'salvation' with her father. It was all the same. An endless repetition of greed and comfort, of power and powerlessness. A cycle from which there was no escape.
Jack’s thrusts grew faster, harder, yet Lea barely felt them. Her body responded — a cold, wet reaction — but her soul was far away. She was with the little boy, with the innocence that was being destroyed at that very moment. She was with the woman who was destroying that innocence just to feel something herself. She was with herself — with the girl who had once believed that love brings salvation.
Jack moaned softly, a deep, resigned sound, and then she felt the wet warmth inside her. He had come. He had achieved his goal. He had fucked her, had proven to her that he could do it. He rolled off her, his body still heavy from the exertion, but his soul lighter, freed from the burden he had carried.
Lea lay there, motionless, rigid. She felt the coldness of his seed inside her, a coldness that spread throughout her body. She felt the silence in the room, a silence that was louder than any scream. And she knew this wasn't the end. It was just another round in a game she could never win. A game she could never leave. She was trapped and the only way out was down, into the cold, dark depths from which there was no return.
Lea extended her hand to Orlando, demanding. "Come to me, little Orlando!" she enticed quietly. He knelt up and came closer and she placed him between her thighs. "I like you to fuck me and cum inside me, little man! Again and again until you can't take it anymore, okay?"
Lea's hand, a white, trembling torch in the twilight of the room, reached out. It was not a gesture of request, but of command. "Come to me, little Orlando!" she enticed softly, her voice a silken cord that closed around the boy and drew him to her.
Orlando knelt up, his small body still shaking from his orgasm, but his gaze was fixed on her, fascinated and captivated by Leas gaping fuckhole. He moved closer, his little feet quietly on the bed sheets, until he was kneeling right in front of her. Lea opened her thighs, an invitation, a demand. She placed him between them, his little skin touching hers, a wave that passed through her.
"I like you to fuck me and cum inside me, little man!" she whispered, her words a poison that tasted sweet and tempting. "Again and again until you can't take it anymore, okay?"
Orlando nodded, his mind a fog of desire and confusion. He didn't know what he was doing, he just knew he had to do what she said. He pressed himself against her, his small cock finding her entrance, and he pushed in, an awkward but desperate movement.
Lea moaned softly, a sound that came from her throat but didn't seem to be her own. She felt him inside her, small, hot, impetuous. She felt him moving, gasping for air, searching for his own release. And she gave it to him. She wrapped her legs around him, pulling him deeper into her while her hand massaged his small bottom.
Jack, lying next to her, froze. He watched as his fiancée, the girl he had tried to save, clung to this little boy, using him to fill her own emptiness. He watched as they did what she had always accused him of. He watched and he knew all was lost.
Ernie, sitting at the head of the bed, smiled. A soft, sad smile. She watched as Orlando, her little angel, lost his innocence to this woman, to this girl as broken as she was. She watched, and she knew that this was the price of love. The price you had to pay to not be alone.
Orlando thrust faster, his movements became more uncontrolled, his breaths became shorter. Lea felt him contract, how he shot all his strength into her. A small, warm surge that filled her, didn't heal her, didn't destroy her.
He sank onto her, his body small and heavy. Lea held him tight, her fingers tangling in his blonde hair. She closed her eyes and breathed in his scent, the scent of innocence and corruption. And in that moment she knew she had finally found what she was looking for. Not salvation. Not love. But the power. The power to take. The power to give. The power to destroy.
And she knew she would never let go again.
Orlando's cock was still hard. She lifted him slightly. "Don't stop, Orlando! Give it to me, keep fucking me until you can't take it anymore! Okay?" Orlando nodded and continued fucking again. Oh, Ernie had already taught him a lot, but his cock was and remained small, a thorn that diligently plowed into Lea's cunt. Lea held him by the shoulders, patiently letting him cum inside, catch his breath and continue fucking. It was only a matter of time before his strength would fail him. Only then would she have reached her destination.
Orlando's small body twitched above her, exhausted but not defeated. His cock was still firm, a small, steel resistance to her tension. Lea lifted him slightly, her hands gentle but relentless. "Don't stop, Orlando! Give it to me, keep fucking me until you can't take it anymore! Okay?"
Orlando nodded, his eyes glassy, his mind a fog of obedience and desire. He sat up, his small hands resting on her breasts, and he continued fucking again, for the fourth or fifth time. Lea stuck her index finger in his asshole, his eyes opened in surprise and agony and so he squirted like hell. Oh, Ernie had already taught him a lot, the subtle nuances of rhythm, the art of friction. But his cock was and remained small, a thorn that diligently plowed into Lea's cunt. A constant, insistent pain that reminded her she was alive.
Lea held him by the shoulders, her fingers digging into his delicate skin and inside his little asshole as she patiently let him cum inside. She felt the little surge, the warmth spreading through her, a small, fleeting filling. She let him catch his breath, his little chest rising and falling rapidly, and then she held him close again. "Go on, Orlando. Go on."
He obeyed. He continued to fuck, his movements becoming slower, less coordinated, but he didn't stop. He obeyed because he had to obey, because she was his goddess, his queen, his torturer. It was only a matter of time before his strength would fail him. Only then would she have reached her destination.
Jack watched. He lay next to her, a lifeless vessel, registering the scene before him but no longer participating in it. He saw how she used this boy, how she drained him, how she drank his innocence like a precious wine. He saw her doing what he had always accused her of, and he knew that this was no longer love. It was war. A cold, brutal war she waged against herself, in which everyone else was merely collateral damage.
Ernie, who was sitting at the head of the bed, was also watching. Her smile was gone, replaced by an expression of deep, infinite sadness. She saw her little angel, her sweetheart, her Orlando, being exploited by this girl. This porky girl even fucked little Orlando's asshole with her index finger to make him squirt! She saw his strength waning, his small body giving way, and she knew she couldn't stop it. She knew this was the price she had to pay for teaching him what making love was. Or what she thought it was.
Orlando's movements became even slower, his breathing became shallower. He pushed in one or two more times, then collapsed on top of her, his body a small, shaking bundle. He was at the end of his strength. He had nothing left to give.
Lea held him tight, her arms wrapped around him, a hug that looked like love but felt like a grave. She felt his heart pounding, a fast, irregular drumming against her chest. And she smiled. A small, triumphant smile. She had won. She had defeated him. She had taken him until there was nothing left.
And in that moment she knew this wasn't the end. It was just the beginning. The beginning of a new addiction. A new power. A new love. The love of destruction. The love of the emptiness. Love for yourself.
Lea's gaze rested on the trembling boy in her arms. A small, exhausted hero whose mission was accomplished. She saw that Orlando couldn't take it anymore. His breathing was shallow and rapid, his eyes were half-closed, his body a lifeless weight on top of her. She took his small, still wet cock in her hand, her fingers gentle but firm.
"Come on, I'll finish it with my hand, okay?" she whispered, her voice a gentle promise, a final gesture of mercy.
Orlando nodded, completely exhausted, his head sinking onto her chest. Lea's hand peeled his foreskin all the way back so that his glans emerged like an arrowhead and she jerked his cock like she had jerked hundreds before, a routine, mechanical movement that she mastered in her sleep. She let him spray on her thighs, a small, warm gush that was barely noticeable. His cock collapsed as if it had been deflated, a little deflated balloon.
She placed the boy in Ernie's lap, a gesture that looked like care but felt like a surrender. She stood up and dressed, her movements quick, practiced, as if she was shedding skin that had become too tight for her.
Jack was on his feet in an instant, his face a mask of pain and disappointment. He walked out with her without saying a word, without looking at her. He followed her because he had to, because he didn't know what else to do.
Lea only walked for a few minutes then sat on a bench with Jack next to her. The night was cold, the sky was clear, the stars sparkled like diamonds on black velvet. They sat in silence for a while, the silence between them so thick it could have been cut.
"Why?" Jack finally asked, his voice rough, broken. "Why did you do that, Lea ? Why did you do that?"
Lea didn't even flinch. She stared straight ahead, into the darkness, as if she hadn't heard his question. "I don't know," she said quietly, her voice as cold as the night. "I just had to do it."
“You had to?” Jack laughed bitterly, a laugh that reverberated ice-cold within her. "Had to? You didn't have to, Lea! You did it because you wanted to! You did it because you're addicted! Addicted to power! Addicted to feeling yourself by using others!"
Lea turned to him, her face a mask of iron determination. "And you? You didn't do it? You didn't fuck your own mom to feel yourself? You didn't fuck my mom to feel yourself? You didn't use me to feel yourself? We're all addicted, Jack! Everyone! You, me, your mom, my mom, my dad! We're all addicted to something we don't have!"
"Yes!" Jack shouted, standing up, his fists clenched. "Yes, I'm addicted! I'm addicted to you! I'm addicted to the love you can never give me! But I don't use children to feed my addiction! I don't use innocence to fill my own emptiness!"
Lea laughed, a cold, hard laugh that echoed in the night. "Innocence? Do you really think he was innocent? Hadn't you noticed, his semen oozing out of your mom's fuckhole? Do you really think he didn't know what he was doing? He wanted it! He wanted me! He used me like I used him! It was a trade, Jack! A fair trade!"
"Fair?" Jack shouted, grabbing her shoulders, his fingers digging into her flesh. "You call it fair? You call it fair to wear a boy down until he breaks? You call it fair to steal his innocence, his breath just because you can't stand yourself?"
"Yes!" she shouted back, her tears now streaming down her cheeks again, but this time they were tears of anger. "Yes, that's what I call fair! Because it's the only thing I have! Because it's the only thing that keeps me alive! Because it's the only thing that makes me feel like I'm still alive!"
She sank back onto the bench, her face in her hands, her body twitching in pain. Jack stood still, his hands shaking with anger and desperation. He didn't know what to do, what to say. All he knew was that he loved her and hated her at the same time. All he knew was that he couldn't let her go and he couldn't keep her with him.
He sat down next to her again, his body still stiff with anger, but his heart already soft with love. He put his arm around her, pulled her close, and she cried into his chest, her tears hot and salty, crying for the love she had lost, for the innocence she had stolen, for the life she could no longer live.
"What do we do now, Lea?" he whispered, his voice was gentle but full of pain. "What do we do now that we know the truth? Since we know we are all traitors?"
Jack smiled, a sad, wise smile. "Now, Lea, now we finally start living. Now that we know that we have nothing to lose because we have already lost everything. Now that we know that we only have ourselves because everyone else has betrayed us."
He pulled her close, his arms a safe haven in the storm raging within her. "Now, Lea, now we can finally love. Without lies, without secrets, without the fear of being betrayed. Because we know that we have been betrayed before. Because we know that it hurts, but that it is not the end of the world. Because we know that the love we feel for each other is stronger than all the betrayal in the world."
Lea closed her eyes and leaned against him, his heartbeat a calm, steady rhythm in her ear. She knew he was right. She knew this was the only way. The only way to escape the labyrinth. The only way to finally be free.
"I love you, Jack," she whispered, and this time the words were no longer just a confession but a promise. A promise built on the rubble of her past, a promise stronger than any lie, than any secret.
"I love you too, Lea," he whispered back, and in that moment they both knew that this was the beginning of everything. The beginning of a new love, a love that was no longer based on illusions but on the hard, cold but honest truth. A love that perhaps couldn't save them from the world, but that at least saved them from each other. And that was all they ever wanted.
Lea's face was warm on his chest, her breath a harsh trail in the cold November wind. Her words no longer came in bursts, but in a calm, almost indifferent stream, as if she were telling a story that had been in her heart for a long time.
"Jack, Orlando was really my third. Dad, you, Orlando."
Jack felt his heart skip a beat. Three. The sacred number. Dad, he, the boy. A Trinity of Sin.
"I needed this, I did this because it was the only way I could shake off daddy's magic. Orlando wasn't an innocent lamb, your mom had already taken care of him. They had just fucked, his semen was oozing out of your mom's fuck hole, so don't talk nonsense to me."
Jack nodded slowly without looking at her. He thought of Ernie, of her gentle smile, of the way she had held the boy. He had suspected it, but it was different to hear it from her. It was an excuse, but it was also a truth. A truth that made everything worse. Mom lets 13 year olds fuck her.
"I wanted nothing more than to get rid of the curse that I had imposed on myself with Dad. Yes, I recognized it when you told me. Yes, I wanted to jump into the Danube, but it would have been the most cowardly way out. Yes, I let you fuck me in front of your mother, because that broke the bond that I saw between her and you."
Jack winced. Her look into Jenny's bedroom, her words in the bathroom — it had all been part of this plan. A deliberate move to beat his queen, to break his heart. He felt a new pain, no longer that of betrayal, but that of manipulation.
"And little Orlando fucked me like a little toy monkey that has a spring on it and fucks until the spring runs out. It was exactly what I needed to break free from the spell curse that chained me to Daddy."
She lifted her head, her eyes were clear, almost transparent. The tears had dried up, replaced by a cool, almost eerie clarity.
"Now I am free, free as a bird."
Jack stared at her. Free? So that's what she felt? Not guilt, not regret, not pain. Just this cold, empty freedom. The freedom of a bird that has flown out of its cage only to find the sky is cold and empty.
"And if you want me, you have to get your mother, my mother, off your cock, otherwise I'll slip away from you."
Her words were an ultimatum. A command. She had broken her chains, and now she wanted him to break his too. She wanted him whole, without the burden of his past, without the shackles of his own sins. She wanted him in, the way she felt now. Pure and empty.
Jack didn't know what to say. He didn't know whether to laugh or cry. All he knew was that he loved her. All he knew was that he couldn't let her go. All he knew was that he would do anything she asked, even if it meant destroying himself.
He took her face in his hands, his thumbs stroking her cheekbones. "I will do it," he said quietly, his voice firm, unmistakable. "I will strip them both off my insatiable cock, even though it will half kill me. I will strip away everything that stands between us. I will do anything to have you, Lea. Anything."
He kissed her, a deep, passionate kiss that was a promise. A promise that he would fulfill her condition. A promise that he was willing to give up everything, sacrifice everything, just to be with her. A promise that might destroy him, but it was a promise he had to keep. Because he loved her. Because he couldn't lose her. Because she was his only one. His everything.
Jack said something else. "Lea, there are things we cannot change. I am a deformed dwarf and I cannot change that." She looked at his face, at the hooked nose that she had once thought strange, then full of character, and which she now saw as just a part of him. A part that she couldn't change, that she didn't want to change. A part that had made him who he was.
He continued, "I fucked my mom for years and also your mom quite extensively, and there's nothing I can do about that anymore, can't undo it. You squandered your innocence on your dad, but he doesn't thank you, he wants to fuck between the big fat asses of your neighbors. You can't change any of these things either. Let's take each other by the hand and go down a completely new path, but together. Until we leave the cursed enchanted forest behind us."
Lea's hand, which had just been in his, suddenly felt heavy, as if it were filled with lead. Each of his words was another stone that he added to the pile of truths that they now had to carry together. The pain that shot through her heart was no longer the sharp, stabbing pain of betrayal. It was a dull, gnawing pain. A scar that would remain. A truth she had to accept, just as he had to find his own acceptance.
"You wasted your innocence on your dad, he doesn't thank you, he wants to fuck between your neighbors' big fat asses."
A laugh, bitter and short, escaped her throat. It was so absurd, so perverse, that it could only hurt. She had thought she was saving him and he had simply replaced her. Against a fatter, perhaps more experienced version. She had become an old model, an outdated one.
“You can’t change any of these things.”
He took her hand again, his fingers wrapped around hers, tight, warm, unrelenting. "Let's take each other by the hand and go down a completely new path, but together. Until we leave the cursed enchanted forest behind us."
Lea looked into his eyes and in that moment she understood. It wasn't about undoing the past. It wasn't about healing the wounds before they even scarred. It was about accepting them as part of you, as part of who they were. It was about living with these wounds, these scars, and still moving forward.
"Yes," she said, and her voice was firm, clearer than ever. "Yes, Jack. Together."
She felt a weight lifted from her, a weight she had carried her entire life. The burden of having to be perfect. The burden of having to do everything right. The burden of making up for the mistakes of others.
"We're both broken," she said quietly, and it wasn't an accusation but a statement. "But maybe together we won't be so broken anymore."
Jack smiled, a genuine smile that made his eyes light up. "Maybe," he said. "Maybe we're just right together."
He pulled her close, his arms wrapped around her, and she felt his warmth, his strength. She felt his heart pounding, a steady, calm rhythm that took over her own.
"We'll make it, Lea," he whispered. "I swear. We'll do it."
She closed her eyes and leaned into him, her head on his chest. She knew the road ahead would be long and rocky. She knew there would be more pain, lots of tears, more doubts. But she also knew that she no longer had to walk it alone. She knew he would be there to catch her if she fell. She knew she would be there to catch him if he stumbled.
They were two lost souls who had found each other in the darkness. Two broken hearts that came together to form a whole. And as they stood there, hand in hand, in the cold November night, they knew that this was the beginning of everything. The beginning of a new life. A life that was no longer based on illusions but on the hard, cold but honest truth. A truth that perhaps couldn't save them from the world, but that at least saved them from each other. And that was all they ever wanted.
The cold bench seemed to suck her cold through her clothes, right into her bones. Jack's arm around her was an iron ring that held her, that didn't let her go, but it didn't warm her. The words he had said still hung in the air, smelling of desperation and a promise too difficult to keep. “Together,” he had said. The word rang in her head like a mockery.
They stood up, a silent agreement that needed no words. The way back was silent, only the sound of their shoes on the wet asphalt. The alley that led to Jenny's house was a dark chasm, and with every step they got closer, the weight in Lea's stomach grew. It wasn't the house she feared. It was what was waiting inside. Or who.
When they opened the door, they were met with a warmth that was stuffy and sweet. The smell of frying bacon, of old fat and of something else, something meaty. Her mother's voice, Jenny, came from the kitchen, a bright, forced laugh that sounded like broken glass in her ears. And then another voice. Deep, humming. Her father's voice.
"...and then he said he would never have believed that such a young buck had so much juice!" her mother laughed, and Leas froze. Jack's hand grew cold around her own.
They didn't go into the kitchen. They went into the living room and the sight that greeted them was a slap in the face. Her father sat on the sofa, his hands resting on Wawranek's voluptuous hips, who sat naked on his lap. Her face was red from laughing, her big, oiled ass glistening in the light of the lamp as she cuddled against him. He wasn't the father she knew. He was a different man. A strange, greedy man whose hands reached for more, for more flesh, for more heat.
His eyes fell on her as they entered. For a moment there was something, a flash of guilt, of shame. But then it disappeared, replaced by a wide, forced grin. "Lea! My child! We're celebrating!" he said, his voice was rough from the wine. "Wawranek has left her useless husband. We drink to her freedom!"
Lea said nothing. She just stared at his hands sliding over the woman's big ass, how he owned her without seeing her. Her fathers hand found the fat woman's pussy, placed his finger upon her clit. She felt Jack's gaze on her, felt his guilt, his desperation. But she felt nothing. No jealousy. No pain. Just a cold, empty realization. It was over. Everything was over.
Jack pulled her close, his face pale, his eyes full of pain. "Come on," he whispered. "We go."
She let herself be pulled, let herself be led out of the room, out of the house, into the cold night. They didn't go to his apartment. They went to a hotel, an anonymous place with neutral carpets and sterile walls. There, in this artificial space, the facade fell away. Her fathers hand found the fat woman's pussy, placed his finger upon her clit.
She tore his clothes off, her nails scraping his skin as she kissed him, a wild, desperate kiss that tasted of revenge. He pushed her against the bed, his body a weapon, and she took him in, demanding more, demanding pain. He fucked her, hard and without mercy, each thrust a question, a scream, an attempt to fill the void her father had left behind. Her fathers hand found the fat woman's pussy, placed his finger upon her clit. She screamed his name, screamed the names of every man she had ever known, as she clung to him as if he were the last rock in a world descending into chaos.
It wasn't sex. It was a war. A battle against the ghosts that haunted them both. A fight against the fathers, the mothers, the lovers who had betrayed them. Her fathers hand found the fat woman's pussy, placed his finger upon her clit. They struggled through the night, their bodies merging into a single, aching being, until they both lay next to each other, exhausted and shattered.
The next morning they were different. The anger had burned away, the despair had become a dull pain. They returned, not to their old life, but to a new one that they built for themselves.
They went to school, sitting next to each other, their hands searching for each other under the tables, a silent alliance against the world. They became the best, not out of ambition, but out of spite. They wanted to prove that they were better than what they came from.
But the past wouldn't let her go. The dreams came in the nights. Her fathers hand found the fat woman's pussy, placed his finger upon her clit. Lea saw her father fucking the fat asses of Wawranek, Pospischil and Ludmilla, heard his grunting laugh, felt his cold greed. Jack woke up screaming, the image of his mother writhing beneath him, her face a mask of lust and emptiness. They stayed awake, hugging each other in the darkness, their bodies shaking, not from the cold but from the memory.
And then there were the nights when the desperation was too great, when the old addiction reawakened. Lea sometimes got up at night, got dressed and went out, walking through the empty streets looking for something she couldn't name. One evening, as she was wandering around again, she saw him. your father. He came from a house she didn't know, his hair disheveled, his shirt wrinkled. He didn't see her, he just walked past her, a strange man in the night.
She followed him. She didn't know why, but she had to. He took her to another area, to a world she didn't yet know. He knocked on a door and a woman answered, fat, laughing, with too much make-up. He went in and the door slammed shut.
Lea stood outside, motionless, her heart pounding in her throat. She knew what was inside. She knew what he was doing. And in that moment she made the decision. She didn't go back to Jack. She didn't go home. She went to the door of the brothel, knocked and entered when another woman let her in. She was no longer a daughter. She was just one of many.
Jack waited. He waited for hours until dawn colored the sky. When she didn't come back, he knew she was gone. He knew that the enchanted forest had captured her again. He got up, dressed and went to her mother, Jenny. He found her in the kitchen drinking coffee, smoking, her face a mask of indifference.
"Where is she?" Jack asked, his voice rough.
Jenny shrugged. "Probably with her dad. Where else?"
Jack laughed, a cold, bitter laugh. "No. Not with him. He's somewhere else." He stepped closer, his gaze hard. "I know where she is. And I know you know too."
Jenny looked at him and there was a deep, endless weariness in her eyes. "What do you want from me, Jack? What should I do?"
"Nothing," said Jack. "Nothing more."
He turned and left, leaving behind the woman who had betrayed them both. He didn't go to Lea. He didn't go home. He went to his own mother, Ernie. He found her in bed, alone, sleeping. He sat down next to her, looked at her, the woman who had taught him what love is and what it is not. He knew he couldn't stay. He knew he had to leave to save himself.
He got up and left the house without saying a word. He went to the train station and bought a ticket to a city whose name he didn't know. He got on the train and as it left he looked out the window and knew he would never return.
Lea worked in the brothel. She got to know men, their greed, their loneliness, their lies. She became good at serving them, giving them what they wanted while remaining empty herself. Sometimes, at night, when she was alone in her room, her finger teasing her clit, she thought about Jack. Of his warmth, of his love. But it was just a memory, a distant light in a world that had long since grown dark.
One evening a man came into the brothel. He was young, nervous, with sad eyes. He looked at her and she saw the pain she knew in his face. He asked her for an hour, not for sex, just to talk. She agreed. He told her about a love he had lost, about a girl he had saved but who wouldn't let him save her. And as he spoke, Lea knew it was him. Jack.
She said nothing. She just listened. When he was finished, he got up, paid her more than she asked, and left. She didn't go after him. She let him go. She knew it was too late. She knew that the enchanted forest had imprisoned them both, that it had changed them both.
She stayed in the brothel, grew older, her beauty faded, but her art grew. She became the best woman in the house, the most expensive, the most desirable. She had everything she ever wanted: power, control, the ability to force and bend men to her will. But she was alone. Always alone.
And sometimes, in the quiet hours of the night, when she opened the window and looked into the dark alley, she thought of a boy who had loved her and a promise they had both broken. A promise lost in the cold, dark Danube, along with the innocence of a girl and the hope of a boy. And she knew that was the price she had to pay. The price for the freedom that she wanted to buy for herself and that in the end only made her even more trapped.
The smell of cheap perfume and stale wine hung heavily in the air of Ms. Wawranek's apartment. It was a smell that Lea's father seemed to love. He lay on the sofa, his clothes rumpled, his face red from alcohol and exertion. Above him, upon the backrest of the sofa, her thick, oily thighs at his sides, sat Ms. Wawranek, laughing a loud, harsh laugh that made her entire ample chest shake.
"Oh, you, my little man!" she shrieked and pressed his face between her huge, sweaty breasts. "Who would have thought that you had so much strength! My old, lame sausage of a man never managed to fuck me as well as you!"
He moaned beneath her, a pained sound that she mistook for pleasure. His hands grabbed her ass, sinking into the soft, spongy mass. He couldn't get enough of it. No more of his daughter's thin, petite body. He wanted meat. He wanted heat. He wanted reassurance that he was still a man.
After Ms. Wawranek had sucked him dry and pocketed his money, he shuffled on to the Pospischil. Her apartment smelled of cabbage and of the cats that lived in every corner. It wasn't as loud as the Wawranek. She was quiet, almost humble. She lay back on her bed, her thick legs spread wide, and waited for him. Her eyes were closed, as if she wasn't really present. Her son had come to water her garden.
He climbed on top of her, his cock, already semi-hard again, finding her entrance effortlessly. She was wet and ready. She was always ready. He fucked her, hard and fast, while her cats sat on the bed, watching him with silent yellow eyes. He stared at her big belly, at the stretch marks that were like maps on her skin. He thought of Lea. Of her flat stomach, her firm breasts. A pain shot through him, a sharp ache of longing. He thrust harder to push the thought away, to prove to himself that he needed this. This fat softness, this lightness, this piggish, bluntly animalistic greed.
When he was finished, the Pospischil gave him a few bills and a piece of bread. "Come back next week, my son," she whispered and kissed him on the cheek. "You're my best boy."
His last stop of the evening was Ludmilla. She was the youngest of the three, but her eyes were the oldest. She worked in the bar down the street where the whiskey was cheap and the women were cheap. She was sitting on a bar stool, her skirt was short, her legs were long and thick. She smiled at him as he came in, a feverish, knowing smile.
"Well, too late for you, little one," she said, patting the empty stool next to her. "Or too soon?"
He ordered a drink, then another. They didn't talk much. He watched how she served the other men, how she laughed, how she put her hands on their thighs when she brought them a drink. She was a hunter, just like him. She knew what she wanted and she took it.
The bar closed around midnight. Ludmilla pulled him into the small room behind the kitchen. It smells like cleaning supplies and sperm. She pulled up her skirt, her thighs pale and soft in the dim light of the bulb. She leaned against the wall, closed her eyes and waited.
He fucked her from behind, his hands gripping her hips as he pushed her face into the wall. She didn't make a sound. She took it like she took everything. With a silent, unwavering patience. He closed his eyes and imagined it was Lea. He imagined he would fuck her, hard and without mercy, punishing her for her coldness, for her arrogance. He thrust harder until he came, a deep groan of relief.
He left her standing, pulled up his pants and left without saying a word. Outside in the cold night, he leaned against the wall and shivered. He was full. He was empty. He had won and he had lost. He had betrayed his daughter for other women's fat ass cheeks, and he knew he would do it again the next day. Because he couldn't help it. Because he was an addict. And his poison was everywhere.
Meanwhile, in a sterile hotel room, Jack and Lea were fighting another battle. They lay in bed, their bodies sweaty, their hearts pounding in time. He was inside her, a steady, rhythmic pulse that wanted to pull her towards him. But she wasn't there. Her body was there, but her mind was far away.
She closed her eyes and saw her father. She saw how he fucked fat Ms. Wawranek, how he clutched her thick thighs, how he pushed into her cunthole. She felt a pang of jealousy, cold and sharp. She was jealous of the women who had her father. Not because she loved him, but because they had the power to have him. They were the salvation, not her.
Jack felt her absence. He felt her moving away from him, even though her body was so close. "Lea," he whispered and kissed her neck. "Where are you?"
She opened her eyes, her gaze was blank. "I'm here," she said, but her voice was unconvincing.
"No," he said, pausing, his cock still inside her. "You're not here. You're with him. With your dad."
She wanted to push him away, wanted to protest, but he wouldn't let her. He held her tightly, his gaze hard but full of love. "You're jealous, aren't you? Jealous of the fat women's asses he's fucking now. Jealous because you're no longer the only one saving him."
Tears welled up in her eyes, hot, shameful tears. "Yes!" she screamed and hit him on the chest. "Yes! I hate it! I hate him because he left me! I hate them because they have him! I hate myself because it's not me anymore!"
He held her, made her cry, made her hit. He made her vomit out everything she had been holding back for so long. He let her let out her anger, her jealousy, her guilt.
And then, as she lay exhausted and shattered in his arms, he began again. He fucked her, no longer hard and wild, but slowly and tenderly. He kissed her tears away, whispered words of love, forgiveness, hope. He showed her that he was there, that he loved her, that he wouldn't leave her.
And as she gave herself beneath him, as she screamed his name, not in pain but in pleasure, she knew that this was the beginning of something new. The beginning of a love that was not based on salvation, but on equality. The beginning of a future that they would not master alone, but together. The beginning of a life that may not have been perfect, but was hers. Their common.
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No. The image in her mind blurred, the red anger giving way to a cold, clear memory that hurt because it was so beautiful. She corrected herself. It wasn't betrayal. It was a repeat. A cycle.
She was seven, maybe eight. The nights were cold and her parents' bed was warm. A safe haven between the two bodies she loved. She was the happiest girl in the world when she lay there, snuggled up between the gentle, sleeping warmth of her mom and the firm, protective presence of her dad.
And then it happened. His hand, which was often in her hair, wandered. She felt a tingling sensation, a strange, exciting feeling, as his fingers slid under the nightgown, over her stomach, deeper, until they reached the place that she didn't know yet, but that seemed to be waiting for him. She was the happiest girl back when daddy was jerking her clit. It was her secret, her special closeness to him, the proof that she was his little one.
She felt Mama move next to her, a quiet hiss that sounded like a snake in the dark. "What are you doing?" Mom had whispered, her voice was sharp, full of panic that Lea didn't understand.
Dad's hand froze for a moment. Lea held her breath. She was afraid that it was over, that this wonderful, secret world would disappear again. But then she heard a faint crunch, the sound of one hand hitting another. A dull thud. Mom hissed again, this time in pain. And then... silence.
Dad's hand moved again. He continued jerking off like he meant to, like he always wanted to do. Mom kept her mouth shut. She got it. She knew who was the master of the house. Who made the rules? And who was allowed to make the exceptions.
And now, years later, here she was, watching the same scene, just with a different cast. The same hand, the same practiced movement, the same grip on the magic button. Only this time it wasn't her small, untouched slit that he was spoiling. It was fat Wawranek's wet, greedy cunt. And this time there was no mom next to her to get slapped. This time there was only her. Lea. The spectator. The replaced one.
The pain that pierced her was no longer hot anger at the traitor. It was a cold, deep melancholy. She was no longer jealous. She was no longer replaced. She was simply ignored. Their special connection, their secret promise, had become a routine, a gesture that he could perform on any body's clit that presented itself to him. Not only had he taken her body, he had also violated her memory. He had turned the best memory of her life into a dirty, everyday act.
She felt Jack's hand on her shoulder, his warmth trying to drive away her cold. But she couldn't feel him. She only felt her father's hand dancing on another skin, another clit. She only heard Wawranek's soft moans, which sounded like a caricature of her own former sighs.
She slowly turned around, away from the sight that was eating away at her heart. She looked at Jack, but she didn't really see him. Her gaze was fixed on something far away, on a girl in a big, warm bed who was learning that love was a strange, painful business.
"He always did it," she whispered, her voice so quiet he could barely hear her. "Always have. And mom was always watching."
She didn't know if he understood. She didn't know if it was important. All she knew was that this was the beginning of everything. Not the betrayal. Not the lies. But that one moment in bed when she learned that love doesn't just mean being loved. But also to be quiet when you are not loved. And that this was perhaps the most painful part of all.
And then dad ordered mom to teach her little daughter. The words hung in the still air of the bedroom, a command that brooked no argument. "She should learn what a man needs. Show her."
Mom had silently reached out her hand, a puppet on the strings of his will. Lea got round eyes, she had often seen the fucking, how mom moaned under him, how he leaned over her, but this was something different. This was different. This was another ritual.
Mom's hand, which had so often stroked Lea's hair, closed around her father's warm, firm shaft. She jerked him slowly, with a routine that showed she had done this many times before. Mom peeled Dad's glans out from under his foreskin. Lea had never noticed that he had a foreskin, that little piece of skin that hid a secret. And now mom unpacked the secret that was hidden and protected by the foreskin. The red, wet head that only had one eye looking directly at her.
Lea giggled. It was a nervous, uncertain giggle, the sound of a child seeing something she doesn't understand but which fascinates her. Mom now took his shaft and she jerked Dad's cock, her movements became faster, harder. Every now and then she took Lea's small hand, her skin so soft compared to her father's rough skin, and placed it on the firm, hot shaft. "Do it," she whispered, her voice flat. Lea giggled again, it tickled so delicately in her own clit , a strange, inexplicable reaction to this sight, this touch.
And mom continued, her hand over her daughter's hand, while dad moaned and the eye in his glans began to squirt. It rushed out in thick, slimy bursts, a white, viscous liquid that ran down her hands. Mom licked it off, her tongue quick and practiced, and swallowed it. This is how Lea learned to jerk off her daddy when she was maybe seven or eight, a little girl in a big bed who learned that love means obeying and imitating. And that the sweetest rewards are those earned with your hands.
Since then, Lea had seen mom and dad fucking with completely different eyes. It was no longer the mysterious, loud fuss of adults that she simply ignored. It was a performance, a play, and she now knew her role in the audience and, she suspected, perhaps even on the stage.
Now she noticed Mom pushing back Dad's foreskin with a practiced hand to expose the wet, red head before inserting it into her own pee hole. It was no longer a random movement. It was a ritual. A preparation. Lea understood that this was the beginning.
She saw how dad was now pumping mom for a very long time, his movements were deep and powerful, while mom's fingers raced on her own clit, a wild, almost desperate hunt for something that only she could feel. And she released the orgasm very quickly, a short, violent scream as Daddy straightened up, his chest away from hers.
Now Lea could see how dad strained his bottom muscles, how his face contorted into a grimace, and how his mucus squirted into mom's pee hole. She saw the white liquid that clung to her thighs when he withdrew. Actually, it was disgusting. The sounds, the smells, the sticky moisture. But at the same time it was extremely exciting. It was like a magical ritual that created life. It was the secret she now shared. She was no longer just the child in bed. She was the initiate, the observer who knew. And this knowledge made her strong.
Lea was incredibly excited when mom maneuvered a strange man into her bedroom. The door had no lock, so little Lea went in to watch. She was the initiate, the witness, and she would expand her knowledge.
The stranger and mom had cuddled for a long time, their mouths were glued to each other, their hands roamed over bodies that Lea knew and yet didn't know. Then Mom had pushed her panties aside, a quick, practiced movement, and pulled the man's cock out of his fly and stuck it into her pee hole, just like Dad's. The mechanics were the same, the procedure familiar. Only the smell was different. This man smelled of smoke and of a sharp, strange perfume.
It didn't take the man very long, he groaned softly, a sound different from daddy's deep grunts, and squirted into mommy's pee hole. Then he put the cock back in his pants, straightened his shirt and was ready to go.
But then he saw Lea standing in the doorway, her big eyes curiously focused on him. “Would you like to be fucked sometimes?” the man asked and reached on her thigh, his hand was rough and warm.
Lea shook her head. "No," she said quietly but firmly. "Maybe another time, when Mom wasn't looking on grumpily." She had learned the rules. Understood the hierarchy.
The man laughed loudly, a loud barking sound that echoed in the small room. He reached into his pocket and handed her a shiny silver coin. 25 euros. "I'll come later, little lady, then I'll do it to you!" And Lea nodded seriously, as if it were a promise, a deal they would make later.
That's how she found out that mom let a lot of strange men fuck her for money. The sweet mom who had taught her how to jerk a cock, who had taught her that sometimes love meant being still and watching. Now she found that love was also something that could be bought and sold. And that realization changed everything.
Lea didn't really care that mom sold fucking for money. It was simply a fact, like the fact that the sun rose in the morning and set in the evening. It was a new kind of normal, and Lea was a child who could adapt. She mostly watched because all the men had different cocks. It was a fascinating, endless variety. Some were long and thin like worms, others short and thick like mushrooms, others had a curved shape, strange veins, a different color. Each cock was a little mystery, a little adventure.
The men were all in a good mood after fucking. Their faces relaxed, their shoulders slumped, they gave their money with a smile. Most gave her a ten euro note, some a silver coin for 25 or even 50 euros. She saved the money like her mom said. This was very smart because it meant she could buy something that was just hers, something that she didn't have to share.
She bought a dildo. It was made of a soft, slippery material, a soft pink, and it was made for virgins. Mom showed her how to put it in without breaking her hymen. She showed her how to insert batteries and how to press the little button on the base. And then she vibrated the little motor. A strange, tickling feeling spread through her stomach, a wave she didn't recognize but was pleasant. She tried it in different places, on her clit, on her labia, but in the end she had to finish it off with her finger because the vibrations became too intense.
Mom said it was completely normal and that if the battery was dead, she would have to fuck herself with the dildo as if it were daddy's cock. Lea nodded, her mom was very smart and knew the answer to almost everything. And so she learned to pleasure herself, with this silent, vibrating piece of plastic that reminded her of nothing and no one, except perhaps a distant, almost forgotten dream of a warm body and a secret ceremony under the covers.
Lea wasn't allowed to tell Dad that Mom let herself be fucked for money. That was Mom's secret, and she didn't reveal it to Dad until many years later, when she was already Dad's lover. But it had one effect that mom had orgasmed so much during the day that she no longer wanted to fuck dad in the evening. And dad became more and more grumpy, he found himself in a state of sexual emergency and started going to Pospischil, the mother cat, who anyone could fuck, more and more often. And then also to Ludmilla, who worked in the bar. She let dad drink coffee in the kitchen and then they fucked right there at the kitchen table. Lea was often there; she was considered a child who couldn't see anything.
Lea had so much compassion for her poor dad, whom her mom was starving. She saw how his shoulders slumped, how the fire in his eyes slowly went out, while Mom just sat tiredly on the sofa in the evenings and watched TV. She understood that he had to leave, that he was looking for warmth, for a place where he was still desired, where he could still be a man. She understood, but it still hurt.
And she almost vomited in disgust when dad stuck his cock between fat Wawranek's fat ass cheeks and fucked her standing up in the corridor. Wawranek stared at her venomously, because for her Lea was no longer a child and should not witness the spectacle. But Dad insisted. If Lea went along, the little one was allowed to watch too. Fucking was something completely natural, wasn't it?
This thought, this painful normalization, began to be a crack in her soul. On the one hand, she was the initiate, the accomplice who understood the rules of this dirty game. On the other hand, she was still the child who stood in the dark hallway and watched as his father, the savior, the hero of her childhood, found salvation in the sweaty folds of another woman. It was the moment when rescue became a burden, when love became a burden she could no longer bear. And that crack should only widen further.
Lea was convinced that fat Pospischil was completely unhinged. No, not because of the cats. But because, for one thing, she was constantly masturbating, even though her clitoris was already miserably chafed and raw. And because she imagined that Dad was her son, who had come to fuck his dear mama — to "water the flowers in her garden," as Pospischil put it. And yes, Dad was a good son and watered the flowers diligently; whenever he left, she would give him a sort of allowance — a hundred or two hundred euros — which Dad was happy to pocket. Sometimes Dad and Lea arrived too early, while Pospischil was still in the middle of masturbating, and they would wait patiently until Mama was finished. Sometimes she mistook Lea for her son’s fiancée, and Lea would have to lie naked beside the two of them. Pospischil would run her fingers over Lea’s body and praise her slim figure. She didn’t shy away from Lea’s clit either, occasionally — though rarely — masturbating her. They were Pospischil’s only family, and both of them received their allowance.
Whenever Dad went to see Ludmilla, 10-year-old Lea was delighted, because the barmaid was down-to-earth and smart — and she let Dad fuck her for free. First, she would make good coffee for Dad and a lemonade for little Lea. Ludmilla was just as uninhibited as Dad when they fucked right there in the kitchen in front of the girl. "It’s better for the little one to learn what real life is all about," Ludmilla said, stroking her hair. Ludmilla had the biggest clit, and Lea was absolutely fascinated by it. She would lean forward and watch how Ludmilla's clit grew and hardened during the fucking, turning into a small, stiff spur. Ludmilla would rub it vigorously just before Dad came. "A woman has to get something out of fucking too, my dear," Ludmilla would explain to astonished Lea. Lea thought Ludmilla was a really great pal — someone who would sometimes let Dad fuck her a second or even a third time for free.
When Dad went up to see fat Wawranek, Lea followed him with mixed feelings. Wawranek was the fattest woman on God’s earth, and Lea was a little afraid because Wawranek no longer accepted the ten-year-old as a child, but rather as a curious observer and spy who had to get to the bottom of all the secrets. But Dad was in love with this mountain of flesh; he mounted the fat woman and mated with her, spurting his semen — grunting with satisfaction — into her fleshy fuck-hole. Wawranek didn’t have a bush like Pospischil did, but only a childlike fuzz like Lea herself — a soft down with a few scattered dark hairs. And Wawranek’s cunt was truly fleshy; fat, swollen labia concealed her small fuck-hole. Dad would stare wide-eyed, like a cow, because Wawranek’s cunt-hole was so tight — like a glove that was too small. Wawranek was clearly Dad’s favorite, yet she always glared angrily at Lea, feeling watched by a spy. Lea would always reach forward and spread the fat labia with her fingers, for watching Dad’s cock spurt into that fleshy hole was a must. Wawranek’s angry glares had long since lost their power to frighten; seeing Dad’s cock spurt inside was more important and far more exciting.
Lea turned 14. She was no longer a child lurking in the hallway and looking at the world through a crack in the door. She was a young woman who understood. She had probably seen the fucking a thousand times, the quick, anonymous meetings in the kitchen with Ludmilla, the tortured moans of Pospischil under her father, the shameless smooching of Wawranek in the corridor. And she thought that her dad shouldn't go to the disgusting women with the big fat asses and beg for a fuck. It was humiliating and Lea was ashamed of her dad. She was ashamed of the longing in his eyes, of the desperation that drove him.
So she decided to actively seduce dad and let him fuck her so that he no longer had to make a pilgrimage to the fat-assed women. It was no longer an act of childlike love as it had once been. It was a strategic move. A rescue mission. A small campaign that she planned carefully.
And so she did it. She waited for the right night, a night when Mama would sleep particularly soundly, like a marmot in his burrow. Then she crept out of bed, wrapped herself in her nightgown blanket and went to her parents' bedside. The smell was familiar, a mix of Dad's sweat and Mom's perfume.
She put her hand on his blanket, whispering his name. "Papa." He stirred, a quiet grunt. She moved closer, her mouth was right next to his ear. "Dad," she whispered again, this time with a new certainty. "I've been thinking about it. You don't have to go to them anymore. To the fat women."
She felt his body freeze. He turned his head to her, his eyes huge and disbelieving in the faint light of the moon streaming through the window.
"I want to do it," she continued to whisper, her hand wandering under his covers, finding the warm, limp tube of his cock. "I want to fuck you, Dad. Always. As often as you want. Then you don't have to beg anymore. Then you don't have to go to them anymore."
She jerked him gently, like she had done a thousand times before, but this time it was different. This time it was an offer. A promise. A contract.
He looked at her with wide eyes and thought. He thought of the Wawranek's greasy skin, of the smell of cats and poverty at Pospischil, of the cold, commercial act with Ludmilla. And he thought of his little daughter. Of her soft skin, her familiar scent, her unwavering loyalty. It was a sin greater than any other. But it was also a relief. A way out of the mess he had created for himself.
He didn't say anything. He just placed his hand on hers, squeezed it gently, and then nodded. A single, slow nod that decided everything. And at that moment Lea knew she had won. That she had saved him. And that they were both trapped forever in this new, dirty secret that belonged only to them.
She and dad acted completely silently, a comedy of silence under the watchful eye of sleeping mom. Every breath, every movement was designed to be silent. Like mom, she pushed dad's foreskin all the way back, a gesture she copied from her, and steered the wet, glowing glans into her own, still untouched fuck hole. She nodded to him, a solemn promise in the darkness that she wouldn't make a sound while deflowering him. She was the savior, and saviors were strong.
Dad came immediately, spraying all over her virgin pussy, even though he hadn't even penetrated her yet. He looked flustered and miserable. Lea was, of course, surprised and shocked. She soothed Dad: "It doesn't matter at all; you're just way too excited. But it'll be fine," she whispered almost inaudibly. She pulled his foreskin all the way back, took his glans fully into her mouth, and jerked him off with her fist until he was hard and stiff again.
Daddy's cock pressed against her hymen and stretched it, millimeter by millimeter. There was a strange pressure, a tension building in her belly. Then it shattered with a quiet, almost comical 'pop!' Lea giggled silently, that pop! came unexpectedly, a small, wet noise in the silence. But she didn't feel a little prick or pain. Just a relief that the obstacle was overcome.
And now she was fucking her dad, constantly looking at her mom to see if she would wake up. She was the better lover, the younger, the more willing. But mom was sleeping soundly like a log. She had just stuffed her pink bunny, her love bunny, into her pussy, which she always did before falling asleep, after the obligatory clit-rubbing game. So it happened that Lea let dad fuck her every night and he really didn't go to the fat-assed women anymore. The mission was successful. The rescue was accomplished.
But a new curiosity began to germinate in Lea. She hadn't always been surprised that mom didn't want dad to fuck her anymore, but she unabashedly played with her clit every evening with her favorite bunny. If she no longer wanted the warmth of a body, why the silent, cold love of a toy? It was a mystery that grew in the quiet nights when Dad came to visit her. A mystery that she wanted to solve one day.
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